Hurt

Half of me wants to erase the pain,

Erase you.

Because if you never existed,

Then you never left.

And if you never left,

How can I hurt?

Half of me wants to hold on to you.

Everything you touched,

Super glued in place;

A world that stopped moving

When you did.

Because if the world is frozen,

Then you never left.

And if you never left,

How can I hurt?

But I do.

I hurt so much.

I think of your smile and cry.

I listen to your voice mail and my heart breaks.

I look at the things you loved and my soul shatters.

I can’t erase you.

I can’t keep you.

Because you left,

All I can do is hurt.